Through my textile work, I explore what lies at the intersection of memory and perception. I am specifically interested in the inherent flexibility, fallibility, and influence of memories in the face of time and experience. In order to allow my material the room to obstruct or influence its environment, I work with slow hand processes and many layers. In this way, my work uses textile practices as a complex and multifaceted language to make tangible the impressionable nature of memory, (un)certainty, and thought.
Recently, I have been building improvisational woven leather structures that create a physical home for personal attributes such as solace, hope, uncertainty, and perspective. While the leather is moderately resistant, its simultaneous flexibility informs the shape of the dwelling as much as my handwork and choices. Each strip of leather is of predetermined length, with varying and inconsistent widths. The shape and malleability of the leather strips facilitate a conversation between myself and the material, creating a slow and meditative process.
I am also developing a series that utilizes data collected from my daily experiences. This data is compiled and interpreted using a rubric that calculates how much an interaction, experience, or act positively or negatively influences my overall feeling of wellness.This study was created in hopes of gaining a deeper understanding of how experiences shape my perception, and what agency I have in shaping my own reality. The results of this rubric are then graphed and replicated by hand and translated through textile processes with varying degrees of legibility.
In my textile studies I am working to integrate personal, scientific and theological principles regarding mental illness, epigenetics, and historical practices of meditation through repetitive acts. I use my willingness to share my intimate struggles and intense self-reflection in hopes that it may create a little more room for others to be thusly vulnerable and self-aware. I hope to remind and reinforce the role of futile acts as a form of self-care and resistance in an age when the pressure of productivity in a market-driven economy overwhelms curiosity and exploration.